joey’s dad is apparently rly invested in this whole IHOb situation

he just hurried up here (at 1:40am) and said “i thought of something, guys. the b in IHOb. it could stand for “buffet”, maybe they’re introducing a buffet”

reireithesmilefaerie replied to your post: “negativity under the cut can i please just get over my hatred…”:

I love you a lot. And I’m so sorry this is what the outcome has been for you. 😦 if there’s anything I can do to help. Please lemme know. Idk why but my brain keeps going to me getting drunk and hanging with you to show you a less ridiculous brand of drunk ™

thank you, i love you too. honestly i feel like flood therapy or something is my best option but i’m scared i’ll get overwhelmed and make it a big thing, or even worse, get overwhelmed and then just sit here stewing in being angry and making everyone around me feel shitty

more than anything else i REALLY dont want to ruin anyone’s good time bcus of my personal problems

negativity under the cut

can i please just get over my hatred of alcohol please

i almost want to just get drunk myself and hope that obliterates whatever trauma makes me feel this way, but at the same time i feel like if i drink, part of me will shrivel up and die

it’s so stupid, and i KNOW it’s stupid, and i want it to go away so fucking badly, but no matter how hard i try to just will away this discomfort i just can’t get it to stop

i dont know if it’s better or worse that every time this happens, all my hatred ends up being directed inwards at myself because what the fuck is wrong with me, you know? why can’t i just be fucking normal?

i must talk about this like once every couple of months it’s so pathetic