i dont want to reblog stuff about what’s going on in cleveland because it’s so incredibly upsetting and i dont like putting stuff like that on my blog

but i wish the victim’s family the absolute best in life. the suspect does not deserve their forgiveness. he deserves to rot. but they are stronger people than i am for being able to even consider forgiveness at a time like this.

so i just got off the phone with my mom

and i mean. i like talking to her, she’s certainly easier to talk to than my dad but.

she’s sick. my dad keeps telling me that she’s going to die. and she sounds so different from when i talked to her last. her voice is so much more tired and raspy.

i told her i’d keep in touch, and i want to because i LIKE talking to her and I WANT to have a good relationship with her but

the weight of it. the implication of it. they’re…kind of overwhelming.