some emotional bs under the cut
it takes so much for me to get comfortable venting to someone about my insecurities
because i’m already constantly telling myself “your problems are stupid and don’t matter, why does this even both you?? it’s your own fault. no one else should care. you’re just being annoying.” and i’m scared that if i do vent my problems to someone, they’ll just tell me the same thing i’m constantly telling myself
i’m always worried someone will respond to my problems with “why does that even bother you. that’s so dumb.”
and like. I KNOW it’s dumb. i’m already angry at myself for being bothered by something dumb. i mean, that’s kind of what being insecure is, being nervous about something that isn’t actually a big deal.
“they hate you” “they’re lying to you” “you’re annoying them” “you’re overreacting” “you’re being stupid” “you’re pathetic” “no one loves you, no one even likes you”
OF COURSE all of that is dumb.
i don’t want to get comfortable with someone and finally tell them about my insecurities only to be given a “lmao that’s really stupid.”
it doesn’t help me get over the stupid things i’m insecure about, it just tells me that i’m an idiot and it keeps me from expressing myself anymore
Mégane à trois 